My life since the last post...Venting time

Ok, will you see folks, no one eva goes on this shit no more. I remember the last time people ever went on this was last yr' december? or longer ! Shit. But, im sitting down in an AC classroom, 4th period, waiting till' this period is over.

Since the last time I eva' post was January. The last term for 2nd symester. I think I changed a bit' the way I look, & pretty much the way I act...' Sadly to say, My life had been changing since I was wit' muh bf. It's been 1 year & 4 months next week monday teh 19th' somehow, I don't feel the way I actually felt before. Few months ago, I had an incident wit' muh family that had to involve efren, >_< It was hard I tell ya' Hard to admit my mother dearest what I've done through the past. I feel bad for myself, & not only for muh bf.

Things have change. Lockdown. Straight home. No comp/cell. What a dreadful life :( I absolutely don't know whats next... But other than that, I feel like I'm loosing many of muh close friends from the past. I keep asking myself, When will this be over?! when will I have the "ALIFE" moments. I feel so obnoxious everyday, thinking bout' How i'm M.I.A alot of shits. I feel like, I want to rebel each day for what muh mom had punish me. But I can't. She's 7 months pregnant, & her due line is on June 3. Few months moretogo. Gett'n there.
(It's 1:16PM) & I'm hella hungry, i'm having the bad stomach ace.

Anyway, I'm still wit' muh bf <3>_< I hate you.

PostiveMIND: Everyone go through this right? I'm still 14 turning 15 few months from now. New baby will be commin' >:P Fuck. Will my life be more tragedy problems? Or It'll go into places how I want it to be. Happy everyday, even tho problems here n' there. (: Willl see... I hate jixing it now. I won't ever predict anymore. The more I predict, the more curious journey I go through & will lead me into bad choices ... & corupted life.

Today is April 15, 2010 as you know. My mom's birthday has pass April 3. She turned 40. From January to now, All my families have been gambling every weekend. Been spending alot of time wit' muh cousins. I have less time for friends ... nor' boyfriends. The good times :( UGH. I'll wait patiently, even tho it'll get me fustrated, I'll handle it to my goodness of pain. Few more weeks, till seniors grad. Till' summer. Till' I go canada (=!!! Till' I'm officially a sophomore... haw' growing up pretty fassst. Kinda scareeh, but very excited to many events in highschool.

My boyfriend still pays my phone, my hidden phone :P He still sneaks in muh house...tsk, as u know, that's only the time I can spend time wit' him. :( & school ONLY! pretty sad. But, were dealing wit this shit, cos we really love each other.

Many people have change... not only looks, but inner looks. Alot of things happened. The good, The Bad, The Ugly. From now, I'll come back. Don't know when? but I hope i'll be comming back, wit good news :)

DEUCE.